Do you ever feel that you are  running low on common sense? That the space it generally rents out in your brain has become completely occupied by information and decisions…? The ability to make a decision based on emotion, rather than fact, has also been asked to leave. I wonder if you can ask it to come back sometime…you know, when work calms down and terrifying episodes are over with, can you ask it to come back so you can start feeling things again? Just feel them, without analysing them, or investigating the myriad of potential outcomes instead of just saying yes. Can you pretend, and just say yes, even if you can’t feel anything… is that a sign that you’re open to wanting it back for real? Or should you just wait, and hope, that someday, life will be more than just a decision. 

(Again, I hope this makes some kind of sense.) 

xBlanaid

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Sometimes, I feel that things can be both completely definite but also completely uncertain at the same time. Like, I definitely need to do something, but I’m uncertain how to do it, but I’m definite in the fact that I’ll figure it out, but I’m still uncertain as to what ‘it’ is exactly.

The only thing I am definite about at this moment in time, is that I don’t have to react to uncertainty. I don’t have to remove myself from a situation because of it, or try and change things to remove it from the situation. Because the only thing that’s definite, for all the stress it causes - is that the uncertainty is the interesting part. It’s when everything starts becoming definite - well, that’s when it also all starts to get boring. 

(I hope this makes sense. It’s been a long week.)

xBlanaid

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Isn’t it interesting how a failed relationship can become one of your favourite friendships? How you really, truly, unselfishly want them to be happy, just because they are kind and brilliant, and one time you loved them, and the best part of that remains.

x Blanaid